2 posts, 1 day.

Travis is flying tonight.  Check ride for night vision, or something like that.  So, it's just me in the silence...well, it was silent. Someone evidently just got an 'ouchie.' Ok. well, it's back to work tomorrow.  It was an odd day because Travis was home half the day and now not home tonight.  I hope tomorrow I am going back to work a little more prepared then when I left last week.  Since having a family and also being a military family, I am noticing that it is not only kids, but myself as well that can appreciate a consistent schedule.  I feel so out of sorts when things are constantly different on the weekends.  Travis is home, then he's not home, then he's home half a day on Monday...etc...So disturbing.  It's not good to have a whole lot of spare time in the house because he doesn't like to stay in the house and there's just never ending work to do at home..so we're just here trying to relax, but we can't.  There's constantly so much work to do that we just go around feeling resentful when one of us is taking a break.  We tend to be rather unforgiving toward one another because we both feel so overworked all the time. Trying to find happiness is difficult when you live in a dreary rainy forest all the time and the options are 'in the house' or 'in town.'

I have eaten dinner tonight already however.  It doesn't feel like almost 9 o'clock.  Perhaps that's because the kids went to bed late.  Probably.  That's because Travis wasn't home.  They would have been to bed on time if he were (or at least close). I either do not hold the same priorities or lack self-discipline.  Not sure. Probably both.  The second is for sure.  Sometimes I wish I could 'trick' myself into having more self-control...self-discipline.  I'd probably be happier.  For example, If i'd just get up about 10 or 15 minutes earlier in the morning, I would not be so rushed, would not be chronically late for work,..and probably be a bit happier because of it.  But I don't. I won't.  I cannot convince myself that it would make me happier.  I guess I just have a fear of being ready before I actually
need to leave the house, and therefor having deprived myself of precious sleep.

Speaking of sleep, I have been falling asleep to a wonderful, new (old) show I found on hulu.  McHale's Navy.  Great show.  I enjoy it at least.  Travis really seems to get a kick of it.  I got some pictures tonight of all three kids playing together.  The girls were thrilled Mickey was willing to hold their hand to play 'ring around the rosies' and run round and round the island in the kitchen. They even went extra slow for him.  Pretty cute.  I guess I ought to get around and get to bed.  I wonder if I have clean clothes for work tomorrow. ? 
 Guess I'll go see.